The Land of Conjurors

After the final, I have lots of troubles that are annoying me. I feel uncomfortable again, painful, anxious as well. I begin to ponder why I need to exist in this world. It appears that everytime I can hardly make things work out, I feel quite depressed. But in the meantime, I question myself on showing this emotional explosion strongly. Why do I feel I'm restrained by this society? It seems nothing wrong but I'm quite afraid of being myself.  Can't think about and do things normally 'cause I got less confidence to trust myself, not to mention that I'll rely it on others. When I watch telly, see the movies, and listen to my favorite musics, I found that I feel no enthusiasm at all. Really. And I've no clue why this condition happens to me. It seems that I have no more passion living in this world, becoming a lost person who can barely enter that "sacred palace" where is hidden in the deep in my mind. "No studying equals playing highly?" Gosh,

peace, silence, Tergvinder's stone settlement, determination, Franklin's tone angel, sentimental, the Bel canto fancy, hallucination, magic's unknown treatment, assignment, great burden that they've thrown til final, leaving, I groan Click

It's weird 'cause I have a great feeling listening to this song even though it's a little old. But when I listen to it, it seems I can fly into the sky and no one will ruin me or even beat me down. Perhaps Snow Patrol is like the one whom John Ruskin mentions in his art theory of "seeing truly, thinking strongly and feeling strongly." I don't know which part John Ruskin will put into them. But if I were John Ruskin, I would put this song in the part of "feeling strongly." It's like I got a tender belief even though I don't have a real religious one. The vocal's voice is so sexy, warm and steady that his voice somehow reveals a power of comfort, support and a glimmer of hope. I keep listening to their songs while I need to finish my assignments in urgency. Just can't stop it. Oh, god, this song is too pure to be true~ maybe they can be my next "Keane." Ha ha~ who knows. Just raving. Well, I also listen to other songs from the

Can you believe it, well I can't right now 'cause Mr. Ruan said I sang pretty good this time just before 20 minutes. But I'm still taking me by surprise. Everytime I made progress, I sang better and better. OMG, which I didn't expect it for receving his compliment by far. I thought I'll never move on, but the turth is that I can do it by myself! Gosh! I was just freaking myself out anyway. I can sing, which it motivates me to keep going on. Because I've been singing a variety of songs at home almost everyday (since I was a junior high student), perhaps it helps a little this time. I don't know, maybe. In addition, I've been singing songs with different languages such as English, Chinese, Spanish and Taiwanese. However, English songs dominate for the most part of my songs. I keep singing these songs no matter they are difficult or not. I just sing for singing's sake. That's why...  YES, that's why I feel alive everytime when I release myself,

Troubled by its body outside Jacob wishes his chicken could soar high But the chicken still cannot be taken in time Since the crowd need a cozy way toward life And this phenomenon is not just one time Which can let Jacob's chicken suffer from its life As if it had been driven alone outside Which it can never be recognized nor put high Suddenly Jacob's chicken unconsciously looks outside An ornithologist is coming to take its life Somehow the chicken's heart burns so high For it seemed to be free now from this raw time.

                               Milos Macourek - Jacob's Chicken                                                                                                                                                  A student called Jacob, drawing a chicken picture, but the picture was not accepted by his teacher. Upon learning this, the chicken, which drawn by Jacob, flies off to seek more suitable life that belonged to it and then cause everyone to look up to in the end.      In "J acob’s Chicken ," there are some differences from other works since it applies comma continuously to form a paragraph and with the fluent narration. For me, I think it presents quite distinctively in reading this fiction because you can hardly stop reading until the end of the paragraph.            Obviously, at the end of the first paragraph, we see Jacob’s chicken, which Jacob’s painting, flies off through the open window because Jacob’s creative thought on painting is not ac

     Well, as I've mentioned beforehand, I still hope I can sing better and better in a short period of time. Today, yes, I'm making progress again and it makes me "a bit" delighted, honestly. But there is a problem that I cannot follow the tune of  accompaniment very well 'cause I've ever had experiences and ideas for doing this kind of performance, which means it's strange for me to sing like this way in front of everyone. The outcome is not so good anyway, but I'd like to try it next time. Furthermore, Mr. Ruan believes I can sing, then I have no objection to make myself being non-confident, which I truly consider for myself so far.       Back home, I watch Glee for Season 1 in the episode 18.       Rachael, who was a singing leader from Glee Club , lost her voice because of the  tonsillitis. In this episode, I had never seen she was off-key in singing. It surprised me a lot 'cause Rachael was always the most top and outstanding student in th

“…my mother took us to the circus. I wanted to go again when I was nine. … ‘You don’t need to go’… ‘You have already been to the circus.’ … It sounds oppressive by today’s standards, but it was actually a magical childhood. I really do see myself as a guy who had this incredible leg up in life because I had a mother and a father who got so many things right.” – The Parent Lottery By reading these sentences, I don’t agree with author’s parents’ perspective and disallowance for going to circus. His parents regard the circus as the fun place where is nothing helpful for his child. Rather, they consider their child should follow their rules and moral lesson by nurturing him perfectly. Children are endowed with imagination and creativity. With these two elements, their brains can be trained by applying imaginative thinking to learn things. Firstly, the acrobatic performances circus makes children feel happy for seeing lots of wonders and feel full of amazement. Naturally, it not only

I've never been so close to your face. And I've never been relaxing before entering in this place Where usually lies in our mind and becomes not so far, Making us treasure this atmosphere for who we are. By the time an alien invades your body and takes your soul, Somehow it makes the lines on your face rise and fall, As if the river was rippled by throwing a good many stones, Letting you feel the real life is quite difficult to hold. Still you are gently easing my pain and tense, Making me gradually feel like a shinning star, Which I can shine you as well in no race 'Cause the air has blended in perfectly for who we are.