The Land of Conjurors

It is the most terrible week for me to meet such a series setbacks. After experiencing those setbacks, I begin to do some introspection. Sadly, the truth is that I have nothing in my deliberation. In addition, I am so ordinary in my way of thinking and so prosaic for my writings. Since Dr. Yu pointed out my way of presenting for my presentation was quite superficial, he stated strongly, “why don’t you go specifically?” But at that time I just intended to do it for the general. Besides, it was annoying that he interrupted continuously while I was making the speech. Incredibly, I had never suffered this kind of situation. At that time, he just broke my heart and threw me embarrassment directly. I understood, certainly, he wanted us to make better by correcting our logic way of thinking and presenting. For me, it’s too harsh to bear now. By suffering this situation, I need more time to adjust my mood and mentality.  Well, got a lot to learn for not study only !

Formal essay: 100/3/16      Yesterday we had an English oral class for the debate. And we had to prepare for the content of it. Before we did our topic for debating, teacher presented some skills and methods to us. She also showed the film related to the debate which could inspire us more effectively. Everyone in the class showed themselves by presenting or controverting their thoughts and opinions with their respect and serious attitudes. Some presented their speech pretty long and repetitive; others merely read their drafts words by words. Actually, if we followed the methods above, it wouldn't do us any good for our English oral ability. To my surprise, one of my good friends, Jean, who presented the affirmative side to us for the topic─ Plastic Surgery, was so natural and explicit in her way of expressing.       You know when you get accustomed to listening to the debate for more serious and respect way, it will get you boring or even asleep. Since they followed the pattern o

100/3/11 I've been thinking about today's lecture in American Literature. We were talking about American literary author, Ralph Waldo Emerson. And we read one of his works called "The American Scholar." In this essay, Emerson put more emphasis on independent thinking, which meant people should think differently on their own and avoid following others. Moreover, he stated that people's abilities were distributed by the whole soceity, which could not be unified as a complete man. Upon learning Emerson's viewpoint, I began to think about it. But it was weird that my family and friends barely mentioned such an important thinking, and I had never thought of this before. Ralph Waldo Emerson in his study in October 1879. Hence I wonder whether it is our culture affected by the way we think. You know that this society is full of richness and diversity. However, our education somehow is stuck in focusing on study only. If we spent less time on study, we sho

Now I am getting better to deal with my messy things. As I trun back to listen my favorite British rock songs, I feel totally alive at the moment. It's quite hard to explain that Brit-rock music can heal my gloomy mentality and can even kick those messy things off out of my sight temporarily. Recently I've found some very excellent Brtish rock bands, and their performances are immensely extraordinary! Maybe that is how I begin to bend on them and their music. Furthermore, when I suffer from my queer habits(one of my personality which I call for myself), I get a quite strong feeling to grasp the meaning of lyrics from songs and listen to their music deep in thought. I know this kind of behaviour is pretty weird, yet I feel full of vigour and enthusiasm in exploring Brit-rock music. Most people think rock music is pretty noisy and defines it as a decadent music. But I don't think so. Actually, there are more rock music bands expressing themselves to satirize social injusti

100/3/2 These days are pretty terrible for me because it is time to face my radical change.  As I have mentioned beforehand, I am preparing for the graduate school by having lecture in cram school.  Meanwhile, recently I've been noticing that my English ability is totally poor, which means I need to make a lot of efforts to study.  The same thing happened to a friend of mine while she was in choosing either to study graduate school or to attend the certification exam.  Through the way she was looking at me, incredibly, I've never seen the way like that.  I could tell that she was deeply in helplessness at that moment.  It was the first time that she showed me with this kind of expression.  Without a doubt, we both encounter the obstacle at present.  Moreover, there is a certain thing that we are not "lambs" now anymore since some stony alteration is in function secretly.  Still, I'm quite afraid of this kind of alteration.  Somehow it makes me feel gloomy, anxiou

100/3/1      People always say that the chances won't wait people and it's ready for those who have well-prepared. I wonder whether people would feel about the outcome of opportunity they obtain or not. Disappointment and frustrations get into our mind if we fail the chance. On the opposite, we will be grateful and feel lucky and even joyful when it comes to the chance. In general, that is the normal way we behave. However, I felt something different about the opportunity tonight while my friends were talking about their part-time job.         A friend of mine said it was complex and exhausting to get on their job without easy ways though they got the chance to do it. Furthermore, they sort of complained about the attitude of the colleagues and the system of their jobs. Unfortunately, they were not as joyful as they gained the opportunity at first. The ending of jobs seemed not to be well-beloved as they could imagine. That was the big transition from "here" to

100/2/21 I've made a decision to advance to a higher school.  Why should this happen? Perhaps I ought to ask myself.  Having a crash on Literature is absolutely not my fault!  Moreover, to do research for my favorite western writers and poets makes me thrill and even to be honored.  However, it is a harsh day for me after I've got my friend's opinion for entering a graduate school.   My friend said that if she was the host, she would hire one who was full of working experiences rather than a "mere" scholar who was inexperienced in working.  In addtion, she tried to prove that working person should deserve what he or she did because they owns the experiences in working more than the other.  In her opinion, it is wise for people to get a job and earn a living on their own.  Perhaps she considers studying is wasting one's time since there are a good many years for us to study in our lifetime.  Therefore, it is time to get involve in society and know more the inf