The Great Ache
Recently I just get lost and don't have any clue for where I can head for. My thinking tends to be more simple than before, I confess. Every time I feel I almost burst out crying, and thinking perhaps I am no longer the clever person in others' sight. However, the truth is that, this is my destiny, my only plan that perhaps God made me for who I am. And I can't help questioning all these inferiority drawn from me. This is unfair since I would like to do my own way of behavior and thinking. But why there is always lots of difficulties? I don't even know. What do you want me to do? I can even conceive a distinct theme on my topic of graduate thesis, ok, this one seems to far to discuss right now. But I can hardly confront the class which I have been taken at the moment. No matter how hard I try, it seems there are no such gleams of light shine at me. I perceive an enormous hole deepened without the bottom at the end of exploration at all but the eddying circling round and